My Screwed Up Romance ♥

my PERTH bitchayyyyyss.

OKAY, im currently back at BB. headed down to school yesterday to hand up my passport.
met up with Sayang:) then to the school. i was lazy to go in so i called shasha up
since she's going to school too. thanks ah.
after that was to B's house to send her DVD. chilled there with sayang:)
slawsome. we watched the movie Jennifer's body. oh my, alot of censored.
hahah so eventually, sayang:) and i closed each other's eyes when theres some censored stuffs.
sweet rightttttttt. after that was to spending quality time with him before im off to perth.
alot of quality time. too much too handle, its so hard to let go ;D
then we walked home. but soon it started pouring. more quality time gituuuu.
seriously, separating from him was just so hard. can i like smuggle him too? haha!
i wonder how cousie Lyn can survive when her fiance had to travel like almost everyweek eh.
Nenek BoonLay has just arrived. wow, speak of the devil.
fatty and i were just talking bout her when she suddenly appeared at our door.
haha like surprise visit like that. later cousie Lyn will drop by to pass me the camera. :D
oh ya, this is my last post before im off to perth tomorrow. omg, its finally here.
something i waited for so long. haha!
so, sayang:) said he'll not sleep tonight cos he wanna spend every last minute he has with me.
sweet right. but im only going for 5days. haha!
well, lets see whether he'll stick to his words or whether he'll be gone anytime.
so fatty just helped to change money for perth.
i gave him $300 but he managed to change $283 and i got AS220.
fcuk ah. then where else am i supposed to get more money. stupid -______-
hah okay, so just now sayang went to airport to send his Sis. she's going serawak.
haiyah, tomorrow i hafta report at T3 by 7am. gosh.
what time am i supposed to wake up and go out?
we'll be taking SQ 223? if im not wrong. haha!
teachers said we're REALLY lucky cos its the first time F&N department
get to travel so far in SQ somemore. haha really lucky eh.
and im luckier cos im one of the lucky ones cos our batch will be the only one going as far as this.
feeling the butterflies already. haha!
im sure we're gonna have a great arse time there!
sharing room with Shasha and Nadiah. and i'll be back on 26nov, thursday night :)
so people, pray for my friends and me to have a SAFE journey to and fro aites.
bye peopleeeeeeee. be missing me :)))))))))
and yes, i was a bad child yesterday. i made mama cried with my comments on her. im sorry :(

No he can't read my pokerface :X

iLy.

You should know what it means right. like obviously.
its been ages since i last said that 3words to a special someone.
even the last romance was not that 3words. its another word.
and that also, i didnt come from my heart. its just like normal words from my mouth.
but now, im using that words to someone who i think deserves it.
and i mean it. everytime its said, it comes right from the bottom of my heart.
i dont know if im ready for it. i may still be young and immature for this.
but im willing to give it a try since i think i really want it.
but im scared, i'll do the same mistake i did last 3years.
and i felt darn guilty for what happened to someone so innocent.
a sweet innocent soul became haywire after what i did to him.
i didnt even spare a thought for him that it was his important year of his secondary school.
and now, karma got me back as i was retaking my nlevel, the same thing happened to me.
someone i cherished so much, backstabbed me in the back.
in the end, i realised that he's just a pathetic bunch who seeks girls simpathy.
but Thank GOD, he guided me through my nlevel.
oh btw bitch, u can HAVE what i HAD. its no use fighting over a pathetic guy,
which im sure anytime i snap my fingers, ten can come running to me.
but you try snapping ur fingers, all of them will say:
"ee, badan macam plus sized pornstar, macam ayam turkey!"
so, dont bother lah kan, just stick with ur GUY.
and he said, he's with you also because he pities with you.
haha both really pathetic ah kan. what a fairytale in this real world.
anw, why am i even talking bout you? YOU? omg. sucha waste of time lah.
but nevermind ah kan, atleast get to embarrass you IF,
one day you happen to pass by my blog. haha bodoh nye bodoh.
hah anyway, back to me.
lately, since i knew Sayang:) things have changed, in terms of my maturity.
i learnt to give and take and listen to people.now i understand,
when we lose something, theres a reason to it.
and see, when i lose something, something more INTERESTING came along.
so its all about accepting your fate.
when ur not meant to be with someone, it doesnt mean its the end.
learn to let got, cos there's a plenty more out there.
and some might even suprise you cos you didnt see it coming
and the next thing yknow, its blooming. hahaha!
okay, enough of storying and sharing. im off.
its time for Gm's medication.
k bye :)

and i think pitbull is hot ;D

Yes finally, the naice smell of the fresh bed and pillows, awaits me at home.
last night i was able to sleep because.. im back at TB. hahaha.
and that explains why i wokeup at 1pm today. best.
Gm was discharged yesterday at 6pm, Alhamdullilah!! :D
now the only problem is, who is gonna takecare of her when im away at Perth.
Gm told me she's worried as the 3maids are not as smart as she thought they would be.
but i told her just let this weekend and next week pass, then i'll come back to TB.
the only problem im worried is, the maids are unclear about her medication.
but i cant blame them, cos they arent smart in these kind of things.
but nevermind, i'll be back next week k Gm :)
so, im going home to BB tonight, as i need to send my passport tomorrow by 9am.
i dont care, im asking Sayang:) to accompany me then head down to his house.
yesterday night, i gained some weight, FOR SURE.
yknow why? cos initially, after singapore idol i went to lalaland straight
despite being hungry. i was halfway through when Wan and adik disturb me.
they laughed and laughed then talked to me like as if i was listening.
and eventually, i woke up. hah, then i felt frigging hungry.
i felt like eating BURGER KING sia! and its past midnight.
where to get? then adik offered to order macdonalds for me.
as i was hungry, why would i wanna reject right.
ordered Pigmac meal and 20pieces nuggets. oh sorry, BIGmac. haha
and i FINISHED my bigmac meal okay! hahaa.
then text with Sayang:), aww sweeets. text till 230am, then we're off to lalaland.
okay, my breakfast/lunch is ready, im gonna eat it.
shall update soon. no, maybe after my trip to perth?
we'll see. as tomorrow till sunday im gonna be real busy. real busy.
so yeah, we'll see how. okay, im off.
k bye.

just smoke one cigarette and run!

Okay, im still at NUH. Gm's surgeon came at 9+ to visit her and take out the tube from her stomach. he said Gm can be discharged today.alhamdullilah.
she'll be discharged at 4. and yes, finally a nice place to sleep.
yesterday night went awfully wrong.
first, the chair was so uncomfartable. then it was so cold.
second, one patient kept on mumbling to herself till 430+
third, i slept only at 445. then Sayang:) called me at 630.
early or what right. chatted with him for awhile before he went off to school.
i'll be staying over at Gm's house again. i'll be back at BB tomorrow -____-
what to do, if not because of having to pass up my passport, i wouldnt wanna come back
till friday.
eh! but i promised sayang:) i'll meet him. alamak!
see lah, this is what happen when theres someone who'll be your other half(soon)
in your life. its not just about me, but also him.
& i guess i've yet to make decision whether im ready to have a change in for my status.
its been 'unchanged' for the past 3years, :DDDD
and because of his anxious-ness, he confidently said:
"nanti BESOK i teman u go skolah ah. i sebarang."
then i was like laughing. i told him its only wednesday.
and i cant wait to meet him too, and ofcourse iknow baby will be waiting at home for me
to carry him too. haha! so cute ahhhh.
hah. omg im so tired.
okay im out, k bye.

you and me can have a bad romance
caught up in a mess

its TwoAm in the morning and i still cant sleep.
how is that possible when i dont even have a bed and the wheather frigging cold.
Gm is fast asleep. *phew. nurses still walking around to so their rounding.
omg, i swear i cant take it already. there's this one patient opposite Gm's bed.
she effing irritating okay, effing. she keeps on mumbling to herself.
"tolong lah, die tak selamat lah" fcuk ah.
your not just bothering me, but also the patient beside you.
bodoh nye ong-tua.
pity Wan who had to spend his night outside the ward cos only one person is allowed.
hais. sorry yeah.
was talking to Sayang:) when the nurse asked me to give Gm her medicine.
i told him to call in afew minutes time and he said he will, so confidently.
and guess what, he's asleep. how dare youuuuu.
nevermind lah, he's also having exams tomorrow.
all the best Sayang:), sy and ry alot alot.
i think im going home on thursday night. see what the doctor says later.
but one thing is for sure, i need to be home by friday.
need to hand my passport for perth trip and besides,
ive promised sayang:) i'll meet him before i got perth.
okay, for now i shall have a nap.
okay night/morning orangs :)
okay bye.

Sometimes i wonder, if what we have is for real.
sometimes i wonder, if im ready for another,
or is this just gonna be a another fling.
but one thing is for sure,
M Y O I R S U
:)
i wanna know what love is.

So im with Gm now. she's resting. Wan is downstairs. poor him, had to stay downstairs.
im sleepy lah okay. but what to do. night shift again.
currently chatting with Abg Dydy and M.
oh, i just dont know how to tell M that im gonna be someone else's one soon.
just back off and enough of what we've been doing. dang.
im just sick and tired of what u want from me lah.
afterall, ur just after one thing. standard. but yknow its not that easy lah.
eh c'mon lah, u think im so typical and desperate like u ah?
ur nothing compared to who im with now. ur just like a piece of meat lah.
so dont bother asking me when wanna meet up and stuffs, cos i wont entertain any of it.
last month will be the last outing with you, sucker.
oh okay, idk why i suddenly felt angry with him.
its not that i wanna ditch him, but im just sick of his tactics.
easy to say, nothing is free in this world lah kan.
okay, enough of this pathetic ass.
currently waiting for Sayang's:) msg. poor him had to takecare of baby.
what to do, ur mum still can produce ur dad still strong as bull! haha!
nevermind lah k, we'll meet up before i go perth.
later friday at home i'll take care of baby okay :)
oh yah, speaking of perth, i've yet to finish packing and buy all the nessacary stuffs.
and how much money to bring. haiyah,
how to do so when im at the hospital for the whole week.
but nevermind, its worth sacrifising. afterall, its who kan im taking care of?
my nenek lah oi.
last time when im still a baby, she cleans up for me.
now that im older, i clean up for her. aww touching right.
haha its an experience anyway. i think i have a passion for nursing.
its fun to look after people and care for people.
imagine, i become a nurse one day, then i'll be like..
"good morning auntie.. how are you? ni cher fan ler meh yoh? " then suddenly, ninoninonino~ and the next thing yknow, im under the bed hiding.
hahaha wanna know why? ask me personally okay.
but actually the answer is quite obvious right, haha!
oh uncle Jali said he'll give me some money for perth. wow $_____$
hahaha! oh, i realised tonight's post is a long one.
haha okay, bye!

im reaching perth in 5days :D